A hole in the heart is preferable to one in the head.

ARGH!!! It's been another week since I've posted anything. It must be due to my Summer Sloth Syndrome. I meant to write something yesterday, but I think the heat waves killed off what little is left of my memory cells.

For me, a summer tradition has been to play Fire Emblem (the 7th one in the series) on the GameBoy Advance. Playing it reminds me of back when I was...uh...let's see...fourteen years old! I still remember coming back from my first day of Marching Band camp with my decrepit school-owned saxophone, downing an entire bottle of Gatorade and then retiring to a game of Fire Emblem. It's hard to believe that it's been three years since I've first played the game. I suppose it's even harder to believe that I never get sick of it! I love starting new files to relive the memories of playing the early levels. It makes me wish that I could start a new file in high school and relive the early years. If that was possible, imagine all of the things I could do differently, having all of the experience that I have now. That's why I like replaying video games; you can make less mistakes on your new file, having made many the first time you played.

Reading Dyana's blog made me realize that my family must not care about tradition at all. Though, my mom DID warn me that Schwanka's parents might not let me go to their house, but I convinced her that she was crazy and I got to go anyway. Sigh, that makes me feel a little bad now. After my grandma died last December, I broke every single rule that Dyana wrote down. Let's see...

-I went to Schwanka's house.
-I invited people to my birthday party.
-I had many fun.
-I ate meat everyday. Heck, the funeral after party had meat! At least, I think it did.
-Oh wait, I don't think I wore anything with animal fur...did I? My memory is so bad...
-I wore a red Santa Hat. Man, that's not fair. That one shouldn't even count.

Though, I guess skipping Christmas for the first time ever balances things out. Maybe? Sigh, probably not. I bet my ancestors look down upon me with much disapproval...like in Mulan.

Man, my entire week has been kind of boring. I guess the most interesting thing that happened was my little visit to the Children's Hospital on Thursday [Crap, I meant to say Wednesday. I lose track of days]. It was funny how much older I was than all of the other patients. It's for kids under 18, and I guess I just made the cut-off. I'm not gonna lie, I was really scared and nervous when I was there. You know, for a while, I had completely forgotten about the blood tests and stuff I had taken back in April. But, they came back to worry me this week.

I normally tell my friends like everything that's going on with me, but this is one of the first things I've actually kept a secret from them. I just didn't wanna worry you guys! Well, I think I was just making Mt. Moon from Diglett's Cave (i.e. getting worked up over nothing). When I was at the hospital, I had to take two different tests: both involved me without a shirt and with cords taped to my body. It was all sorts of awkward. The electrocardiogram lasted all of ten seconds.

I had the coolest doctor. He was Japanese, I think, and he's a CAL graduate! AND, he was in the Marching Band! AND, he said used to carry around a pocket watch just like me! AND, he has tried playing badminton before! Ah, so cool. Anyway...he told me that my electrocardiogram was 99% normal. Then he listened to my heart and told me that since I'm so skinny, he can hear all four valves of my heart opening and closing. Neat.

After that, I had to take an echo cardiogram, which is an ultrasound, more or less. I felt like a pregnant woman. Luckily, I got to watch T.V. while an Indian doctor searched my heart for problems. It took her two Spongebob episodes to find something. Apparently, I have a muscular ventricular septal defect (what a mouthful). It's basically a small hole in my heart, literally. It's nothing to worry about though. The hole is smaller than the name that describes it. The doctor said it won't affect me in anyway, except I probably have to take penicillin before my dentist appointment to prevent the teeny-tiny possibility of a heart infection. He says I can still be in marching band, ride my bike, and play badminton normally! Hooray!

However, I'm still wondering if this explains why I sometimes feel like something is stabbing the tip of my heart. This hasn't happened in a long time (though, remember that my memory has been sucking lately). I just mostly remember this happening when I was younger. Ah, who knows. It could probably just be cramps or something. Or gas, that seems to be the root of a lot of problems for people.

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Cross your heart?

I haven't posted for over a week! Again! Well, at least I have an excuse this time. Being two thousand miles away from my computer is a good reason, right? First off, I want to give this. It has pictures from the first two days of my trip:

http://www.flickr.com/photos/intotheair/sets/72157619650182553/

I also saw Up today! Even though it was of questionable quality and had Russian text, I still loved it. I think it ranks with The Pianist as one of my favorite movies. I really took notice of the music and how it amplified all of the emotions in all of the scenes.. Hmm...if only I could learn how to do that in the videos that I edit.

Quote of the day (which I came up with all by my clever self):

"One shouldn't take directions from a blind man."

Well, in my case, a blind man shouldn't tell another person where to go. I have no idea where I'm going; therefore, I shouldn't direct the path of another. Ah, it makes so much sense!

With Quiet Courage, We Shall Lift Lamps of Courage to guide us through these Shadows of Eternity and Into the Light.

Those are just a few songs that I think can accurately depict the mental image I have of this past school year. Though, I think the one most pertinent to the events that have happened over the course of these ten months is, oddly enough, Shadows of Eternity. As I've described before, that song is all about how life and history repeats itself, and how your world can turn upside down, just when you least expect it. An important lesson that I learned from the song is that where there is light, there will always be shadows cast, but so long as you always travel with a light, you will never get lost in the darkness.


Even though my memory has developed the habit of blocking out the events of the past, I'll try my best to recount what has happened without stating what is not the truth. I think a good place to begin would be marching band camp (Coincidentally, it's also the best place to begin high school). Now that I was a junior, my responsibility in the band had increased and I had to make sure that I set a good example for everyone else. I got to lead the lines in the saxophone section and everything! I even went on to win (tie Robert for first) in the drill down competition. I feel kind of greedy and I'm hoping to win another plaque next year.


I can't say that I was huge fan of the songs that we played this year in marching band. But, I'll go as far as to say that I hated playing China Grove and Oye Como Va. Smooth Criminal was almost just as repetitive as those two. I think the only songs that I really enjoyed were Crosstown Traffic and Conga. I really hope the saxophones get better parts in the songs for next year. If we don't, then I really don't have anyone to blame except for myself, since I'm a section leader now.

Once school started, life really began to go down the toilet. All of my classes looked innocent enough, but little did I know, I would be trapped in their suffocating grasp for nine months. Let's take a look at some interesting points from each period:

A period - Jazz Ensemble: What a way to start the morning. Blues scales that I didn't even know, and I still don't know. Solos that I was terrible at doing and is the main reason I switched to bari sax. Music that didn't make sense to me half of the time. It was an entirely different band. Jazz is a form of music in which the player has to read in between the lines. If you're like me, then you'll simply play what's written; no more, no less. That, however, is completely wrong. There's a style to jazz that I still need to figure out for myself. I'm a senior next year, and there's still so much to learn. When I think of the beginning of the year, I think of the song Take the "A" Train. It just embodies the feeling of starting new in Jazz Band for me. When I think of the song, I still get filled with that same feeling of cluelessness that I had in the beginning of the year. However, I'm glad that I was finally able to play my solo in Dance to the Music correctly by the end of the year, even if it wasn't in front of an audience.

1st period - English 3, Honors: Ahh...I remember doing the entire summer assignment the day before school started. I think that may have been the start of our study groups (and I use the term loosely). Despite having a lot of work, I still liked the class because Ms. McGrady made all of the books we read interesting. My favorite book from the class was probably The Great Gatsby by F. Scott Fitzgerald and Night by Elie Wiesel. Also, please ignore the fact that those were the two shortest books that we read. We also watched several movies that I thought were really good like The Pianist and Life Is Beautiful. Sigh, it's such a shame that we couldn't finish Life Is Beautiful, but I think I can say that The Pianist is one of my favorite movies. I'm not sure why exactly, but there's something about it that I really like. It's just different from every single movie that I've seen before.


2nd period - Pre-Calculus, Honors: Oh my goodness, here's where the day starts to get a little depressing. I like Mr. Sanders as a person; I mean, we have the same taste in music, but it's almost safe to say that I didn't learn anything math related from him all year. Well, that's probably not all entirely true, but it's pretty darn close. He does have some cool pieces of technology in his class though, like his school bus yellow calculators and his projector along with his Mac. I still want to ask him for his library of music...

3rd period - U.S. History, AP: I loved this class because Mr. Wilson never made it boring. I just feel really guilty because I feel like I could have done so much better if I wasn't so lazy. If I had read the book or done the study guides by myself, maybe I could've gotten a grade better than the A- I maintained all year. In this class especially, I felt the year speed by quickly. One moment, we were fighting for representation in Parliament, the next we're protecting the world from Nazi Germany. Before I knew it, John F. Kennedy had been assassinated and Bill Clinton had created NAFTA. Mr. Wilson is such a great teacher; I feel really sorry for anyone who doesn't ever get the privilege of being taught by him.

4th period - Symphonic Band: Ah, my favorite class of the day. I know it's my favorite because I am never unhappy to go to it. We played a lot of good songs this year: upbeat ones like Percussion Espagnole and more serious ones like Jupiter. However, the one that everyone loved was Into the Light. It's one of the most beautiful and memorable songs that I've ever played in my life (With Quiet Courage being one of the others). I think I've mentioned before how the oboe solo in Into the Light is like the bridge between the slow beginning of the song and the rush to the end. To me, that represents the bridge between junior year and senior year in high school. I'm at that bridge now, and just like when I'm playing the song, I have to make sure that I take a deep breath before I cross.

5th period - Biology, AP: This class would have been really depressing if I was awake for more than 50% of it. I tried my best in the beginning of the year. No, honestly, I did. But, once we changed seats and annoying Jeannie was no longer an option, things got really boring, really fast. Since I was sleeping for most of the year, I don't have much to write about this class. I did pull off an A for the 2nd semester, so I guess you could say that I can get A's in my sleep.


6th period - Spanish 3: This class was such a big joke, I don't even feel like talking about it. Though, I really liked this period because of our little band corner. We used our combined strength to cheat on tests and projects, skip class, and do pretty much whatever we wanted! Also, let it be known that I forgot more Spanish than I actually learned this year.

Now that classes are done, how about some of the extracurricular activities that I did this year? I joined a lot of new ones this year, and continued the old ones. Badminton was more or less the same. Being my third year on the team, I got used to losing...a lot. I should really find some time to practice over the summer. At least I had a lot more friends in badminton this year! I remember I only really talked to two people on the team when I was a freshman.

A club that I joined recently this year was WE, but I feel bad for not being a more active member. Hopefully next year I can do something worthwhile for the club. I like the T-shirt though!

JSA...what is there to say about it? I went to all of the conventions this year, so I guess that makes me an active member. The conventions are fun, as long as I can stay awake...without the assistance of coffee and coffee flavored energy drinks. Sigh, I still don't think that caffeine is out of my system yet.

I guess that would bring us to Film Club. For some odd reason, I became the Secretary of the club. Though, I guess that fits my personality the most since I'm more of a behind-the-scenes guy. I've also found my niche as an editor and I've "successfully" edited two whole videos for Film Club this year! Yayyy. I hope I'll do more next year, especially with the new software I got today (assuming it'll actually work). I also hope that I haven't single-handedly jeopardized my entire summer project...

Of course, one of the biggest highlights of the year was going to Disneyland. It was so much fun hanging out with [almost] all of my best friends at the happiest place on Earth. Performing with Jazz Band was such a blast and recording with Symphonic Band was so cool. It would be fun to do that for a living. However, I think the funnest thing I did was ride with Nez and other band kids on Tower of Terror, California Screamin', and Space Mountain


This year, I started blogging and taking pictures. They serve as outlets for my, er, "creativity." I blog because it's more worthwhile than simply talking to myself all of the time. Before I blogged, I found myself having conversations in my head at the end of the day about random things. I take pictures so I can look at things in ways that I normally can't see them. Hopefully, I can expand my picture repertoire to things outside of, well, random stacks of stuff.


This year, for me, has truly been the paragon of opposites and cycles. While I've made a lot of new friends, I've slowly stopped talking to a lot of my old friends (especially the ones that wear black all of the time). The year ended almost the same as how it began: I found myself at Red Onion with the guys, gathered there for almost the same reason both times. The bond between us guys has certainly grown very strong this year. Every single one of us had/has our own different problem, and we all do what we can to help each other out (whether we like it or not). Our study groups are a time to talk about things that are on our minds and play video games. It's like therapy and a bunch of teenage boys are the psychiatrists. The Magnificent Seven; each individual is a symbol of either Courage, Friendship, Love, Sincerity, Knowledge, Reliability, and Hope.

For this past year, "Change" seems to have been the theme for the rest of the world, too. In a lot of ways, I know I've changed a lot from the beginning of the year. I've become much more mature, but at times, I feel like I act the same as I did when I was a sophomore. I try to act more responsible, but I sometimes end up screwing everything up in the end. I want to become more social, but my self-consciousness gets the better of me.

Cycles, up and down, like and love, black and white, open and closed. How can things be so different, yet so similar? Why does history repeat itself? Why do things fall apart just as they reach their highest point? Though I've traveled a thousand miles, why have I not moved an inch? These are questions that have popped up this year, and though I don't have any answers, perhaps things will become clearer during senior year.

Who can say if I've been changed for the better?

But because I knew you, I have been changed for good.

I feel like such garbage right now, and I just want to sleep, but I want to write my 99th post tonight. That way, I can reserve my 100th post for my big annual end-of-the-school-year reflection. Sigh, this year's might be tough. Now let's see...what interesting things have happened this week, well, the ones I'm allowed to talk about anyway.

We took finals this Monday and Tuesday and I did poorly in almost all of them. Much to my surprise however, I managed to scrape by with A's in History and Biology. I already know I have high A's in English and Spanish, so I just need to worry about Math now. Sigh, the Math final was open book, and I still wasn't able to finish it even though I had three days to do it. Maybe Mr. Sanders will cut me some slack, just out of favoritism.

We performed two graduations today, but I got sad when I realized that it was my last year ever playing Pomp and Circumstance and Music For a Ceremony. I think for most of us, playing "Into the Light" was the highlight of our nights (Wow, lots of rhyming). That song really IS powerful; I had goosebumps like the entire time. I'm also glad that I didn't mess up solo. That's always nice.

For some reason, I've been getting these massive headaches and stomach aches lately. I've also had a loss of appetite at home and at school, too. I'm afraid that I'm going to lose weight...I'm already falling under 110 pounds! Sigh, oh well. I just feel like sleeping right now...I can't think straight. I think I should stop before I start writing even more nonsense.

So now we fly ever free, we're free before the thunderstorm.

On towards the wilderness, our quest carries on.

Hmm...two blogs in one day. I must REALLY be bored. Though, I really do need to write something, since I haven't in a couple of days. And, so many exciting things have happened during that time gap! Now...where to begin?

...great, I can't even remember what happened on Thursday. I really think I was dropped on my head when I was a child, because I forget the most recent things, but I remember the most random things from a long time ago. Let me think...hmm...I THINK we got yearbooks on Thursday. Yeah, that's right, and they're terrible! Well, they're actually alright; they just have like a million mistakes. They misplaced the Jazz Band picture...twice. They mixed up the Homecoming float winners (I bet they're just mad that the Juniors won). Students and teachers were put into the wrong sections and club photos were swapped. Heck, some didn't even show up at all! Haha, ahh...Forensics.... Well, the only reason I ever buy yearbooks is for people to sign them, but I'm always too shy to ask anyone to sign mine, so I usually don't end up with much writing (Haha, but this year is different already!).

Let's see...yesterday, I went to the Walk-Out Rally for the first time ever, but I kind of regret it. The bleachers are surprisingly uncomfortable without Marching Band pants and everyone around me was screaming about how much they hated everything. Though, I did like that runner showing off his speed and agility in front of the school. The giant mob of people on top of the field at the end was interesting though; I never knew that happened at the rally. I kind of stayed off to the side and watched everyone attacking and hugging each other. And then, I started looking down and at the field and started feeling sad because I realized that I only get one more year to march on it.

Afterward, I went to Happy Sashimi and then met a security guard that convinced me that benches are meant to be looked at and not sat on. Then, I went to Daniel's house to film our project. If I recall correctly, it involved me wearing a Pokémon hat at one point and playing with a slinky...slinkie...?

After that exciting episode, we mosied on down to the school listen to the seniors perform at the Senior Recital for Conservatory. Just listening to them made me nervous for my turn next year. I'm already pretty sure I know what I'm doing and it's fairly, uh, challenging. I just need to get those 32nd notes down...and find a way to not be so nervous all the time when June 2010 rolls around. Sadly, I'm sure that time will creep up behind me way before I realize it.

Finally! About today! I awoke early this morning in order to prepare for my US History Subject test, which was to be administered at Oakland High School. However, there was an unforeseen obstacle that arose in the form of a malfunctioning electric pencil sharpener. Luckily, my mom was able to conjure a hand pencil sharpener, seemingly out of thin air. It was in the shape of a train, but since it was made in China, it didn't work very well, but at least it was able to get the graphite out of the wood.

And with that, I was off. Back to whence my father came! Er, at least, back to where my dad graduated high school. The test was hard; maybe it's because I didn't eat enough, or maybe I didn't get enough sleep. Anyway, after the test, Tony and I roamed about the three floors of the school. He discovered that there's light switch in the bathroom and decided to turn it off as we left, leaving two unfortunate boys in the dark...literally.


Once we got back to Pinole, I had myself a little bike adventure. I rode from Hercules to Fernandez Park to Collins to Red Onion to Tony's house to Daniel's house and then back to my house finally. I'm guessing that I rode about four or five miles today. This includes the dozens of times I had to ride up and down Canyon Drive for filming. On the way back home, I pulled a muscle in my leg and I could barely bend it at all. I think I started whimpering like a little sissy boy. Now, my legs feel like jelly...and my fingers are tired.

Tomorrow, I have to work on editing our video and maybe if I have time I'll find a way to install new video editing software! Hopefully without crashing my computer! And without contracting a virus! I'm using a lot of exclamation points, and I didn't even drink any coffee today!! I feel like I could write a lot more, but my fingers are getting tired from typing. Gosh, why must my thoughts be constantly stifled by my weak fingers?!

This gets its own post because it's so freaking long.

I'll write something more interesting and more normal later.

[Stolen from Dyana]

LAST

Person you got mad at?
-I don't get mad at other people, just frustrated. The only person I get mad at is myself.

Person that got mad at you?
-If anyone, it'd be my mom...or Nez...

Thing you put in your mouth?
-My finger.

Thing you said out loud?
-I have no idea...I almost never talk at home.

Song you heard?
-"Star Wars ~ Main Theme" Yeah...I've been listening to a lot of John Williams lately.

Time your heart was broken?
-Umm... I guess you could say nine months ago.

Nickname you were given?
-"Hobo" by random children at the park.

Time you worked so hard you thought you were going to die?
-Pedaling up the hill to my house.

Time you fell in love?
-Eight months ago?

Text you got?
-Random spam.

Text you sent?
-I don't text on my phone.

Wish you made on a star?
-Probably for life to stop being so confusing.

WHO

Do you love?
-Andrea and all my other best friends.

Do you hate?
-People who make the world bad.

Can you never live without?
-Anyone; just because someone else isn't with you anymore, doesn't mean your life should have to come to halt. Though, if we were to get technical, it'd be border patrol because they keep Canada from invading us.

Frustrates you the most?
-People who just don't listen.

Would you take a bullet for?
-I'm not sure what would stop the shooter from just shooting the both of us...

Can make you laugh even if youre about to cry?
-Tony, I'm pretty sure.

WHAT

Did you do last night?
-Did some filming and went to the Senior Recital at school.

Will you do tonight?
-Mess around with new software and practice my recital piece!

Were you doing three months ago?
-My memory is terrible, I have no idea...

Is your ringtone?
-The best one, it goes "bzzz...bzzz..."

Would you never do, even for a billion dollars?
-A lot of things, like kill myself.

Was the last injury you got?
-Probably that bruise from when Tony fell on me.

Are you wearing?
-A white T-shirt that says "Year of the Rat" and some shorts...I like mice.

Is wrong right now?
-I can barely stand up..my legs are so tired.

Should you be doing?
-Hmm...nothing really. Practicing my oboe, I suppose.

WHERE

Are you?
-In front of my computer, next to my bed, in the loft known as my room.

Is the person you like?
-Hmm...I actually have no idea.

Do you live?
-2900 Pinole Valley Road...hehehe...

Do you wish you lived?
-I love where I live right now.

Is your place in the world?
-Anywhere where I can be myself and I'm with people that actually don't think I don't have a mental retardation.

Do you feel most comfortable?
-Around friends who are easy to talk to.

Will you never go again?
-Uhh...my relatives' apartment in China because it doesn't exist anymore.

WHY

Are you taking this survey?
-I really have nothing to do, and I'm curious to see what I have to say about these questions.

Is the world so corrupt?
-People give into temptation.

Is the sky blue?
-An amazing artist colored it that way, but had to use a pencil for the skies above China's cities.

HOW

Are you feeling right now?
-My stomach and legs ache. My mind is racing with thoughts, as usual.

Long can you hold your breath?
-Not very long, I'm sure. Well, it was 1'30", but I decided to stop before I passed out.

Much time do you waste on facebook?
-Only a couple of minutes everyday.

Is your heart?
-Not sure...I still haven't found out the results to that blood test.

Far would you travel for the one you love?
-As far as my weak, little body will take.

Would you like to spend all of your time?
-Doing things that I love, with the people I love, and I having a good time...which I love.

SPELL YOUR NAME

Without any vowels?
-Bryn. It's almost the same!

Backwards?
-Nayrb. I think someone named an Animal Crossing city this before.

HAVE YOU EVER

[x]played Spin the Bottle?
-It ended with me licking various parts of a table.


[ ]toilet Papered someone’s house
-That would be such a waste of paper.


[ ]played Poker with money
-I've played strip poker with a bunch of guys, though.


[x]been tickled so hard you couldn’t talk
-Yeah, plenty of times...just not lately.


[x]liked someone but never told them
-Some things are better left unsaid, I suppose.


[]went camping
-The bugs! The bugs!


[]had a crush on your brother’s friend
-I probably would if I did have a brother.


[x]walked in the rain without an umbrella
-Not fun.


[x]told a joke that nobody thought was funny
-Like everyday.


[]been in a talent show
-I'm not talented enough, and I don't do well in front of an audience.


[x]worn somthing your mom didn’t appove of

[ ]been to a nude beach

[ ]drank jack daniels

[ ]cursed in a church
-I've haven't been to a church at all...except Chinese school.


[x]burnt yourself with a curling iron/straightner
-It was a regular clothes iron, at a Disneyland hotel. I was wondering why it wasn't hot.


[]wanted to be a police officer

[]dumped someone

[x]been hit on by someone too old
-Yeah, but they're always guys...


[]wanted to be a model

[]bought lottery tickets

[]made out in a car

[x]cried during a movie
-They're always Pokémon movies.

[x]wanted something you couldn’t have
-A Wii...


[x]seen someone shoplift

[]hung up on someone

[x]yelled at your pet
-I think my hamster bit me once.


[]gotten seasick

[x]played a prank on someone that had them really scared
-I think I scared Schwanka when I dropped "my phone" and Brian stepped on it.


[x]been embarrassed by someone in your family

[]felt bad about eating meat

[]protested

[x]been to an island

[x]been in love

[x]ate just because you were bored

[]screamed in a library

[x]been dumped

[x]wished a part of you was different

[x]asked a guy to dance

[]been asked out by a really hot guy

[x]laughed so hard you cried

[]went up to a complete stranger and started talking

[]been sunburned

[]kicked a guy in the nuts for being a pervert

[]threw up in school

[]received an anonymous love letter

[x]had to wear something you hated

[x]cursed in front of your parents
-Only when I was little, and it was because my sister tricked me.


[]watched a movie that made you miss your ex

[x]been out of the country

[x]been honked at when you were walking down the sidewalk

[]went on a diet

[/]been cheated on
-Kind of...


[]been attacked by seagulls

[]been searched in an airport

[x]been on a plane

[x]been pantsed
-Makes me glad that I only took one year of P.E.


[x]thrown a shoe at someone

[x] broke someone’s heart

[x]sung in the shower

[]bought something way too expensive

[x]done something really stupid that you still laugh about later
-Remember when I almost died while climbing on the roof? Ahh...good times...


[x]been walked in on when you were dressing
-I really need doors for my room.


[]been kicked out of the mall
-I've just been followed around by mall police.

[x]been mean to someone then instantly wanted to take it back

[x]been given a detention
-I can't even remember for what, though.


[]fell off your roof
-I've never tried climbing my roof before...


[]pretended you were scared so you could cuddle up with someone
-Nope, I was really scared when I was walking with Will and Lauren from Lorena's house.


[]had a deer jump in front of your car

[]threatened someone with a water gun



CAN YOU



[/]Unwrap a starburst with your tounge
-I cheated, though.


[]sing

[]open your eyes underwater

[]eat whatever you want and not have to worry

[/]ice skate
-I kind of learned this year!


[]sing in front of a crowd

[x]whistle

[x]be a bitch at times
-I guess you could put it that way.


[]do thirty pull ups

[]walk in really high heels
-I've tried; it's really hard.


[]eat super spicy foods
-I've tried; I found out I can't.


[]skateboard
-I've tried; the skateboard flew under a car.


[x]sleep with the lights on

[x]mulititask

[]touch your nose with your tounge

[]fall asleep easily in the car

[]do the cotton eye joe

[]play ddr and not fall

[]surf

[]fit in your locker

[]do a split

[]taste the difference between pepsi and coke

Okay, I apparently can't do anything. I'm Asian, and I am terrible at DDR. I'm also too tall to fit into a locker. Sigh, it makes me sad; it's something I've always wanted to do. The spacing got all messed up, but I don't want to fix it...three times is too much for me.

We feel the pain of a lifetime lost in a thousand days.

Through the fire and the flames we carry on.

Sigh, I wasn't planning on writing anything tonight, but seeing as how I have found myself doing nothing and talking to nobody, I figured there must be SOMETHING I could write about.

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Well, there's this raccoon that comes to my backyard now and steals my cat's food. There's even a fox that runs across the backyard occasionally. Speaking of stolen food, apparently my cat ate my dad's lunch yesterday. I guess it just jumped on the dinner table when nobody was looking and just started eating. No wonder it's so fat.

Also, for like the first time that I can remember, I did not eat any meat today. I ate cereal for breakfast. I had to skip lunch again (I haven't eaten lunch since Monday). And, I ate potato salad and regular salad at home. Sigh, I feel like such a rabbit. I should set a weight goal for myself to reach before the summer ends. Say...120 pounds?

I guess there was something kind of special that happened today. Ruth passed the tuner's torch to me for next year's Symphonic Band. That means I should probably keep a tuner with me from now on, to make sure I don't screw up the entire band. I like it when everyone tunes to me, though. It means that I don't have to worry about myself being out of tune with everyone...usually.

Like, Love.

At what point does the line between the two blur, and how do you know when you're trapped in the space in the middle? Where does one end and the other begin? If the Chinese use the same character for both words, how do you know when someone is talking about like and when someone is talking about love? There are few things in the world that I can think of that are so very confusing like, love.

Just something that I started wondering when looking at my charm thing.