How far I've come from my childhood home!

There will come a time when my troubles are gone
And when I shall not be all alone—
Till then, I dream of my home, sweet home

Lately, I've been feeling kind of empty inside, like my life lacks a purpose and meaning. I've been feeling like the things I do won't really matter in the long run. I need some sort of motivation to keep me going and doing stuff. Normally, people have a reason to do what they do, or at least have some sort of goal to reach. This must be like some sort of mid-teen crisis.

It seems like I've been losing a lot of things that have been close to me. If Nez isn't going to be there next year pushing me to do my best, who will be? If the school is going to go on strike in the beginning of the year, is there any point in trying to learn this year? A lot of things that used to be a big deal now seem insignificant in the grand scheme of things. Lately, I've been worrying about where I'm going and how I'm going to get there. I've also been wondering about who will be joining me on the trail through darkness known as the future. Hm, maybe I'm just talkin' crazy talk or maybe the summer heat has gotten to my head. My mind HAS been getting lost in these summer doldrums.

I suppose no matter where I go, I'll always have music to accompany me. I downloaded all three of The Black Mages' albums today. For those of you who don't know, The Black Mages are a Japanese rock band who cover Final Fantasy songs (The composer happens to be the keyboard player). Brian also introduced me to this very pretty song called Flowerdale. It features an all brass ensemble and a solo cornet. The high notes that the cornet hits are just crazy...and very, very pretty.

P.S. I feel obligated now to explain where my titles come from. This one comes from the lyrics from a Final Fantasy V song called "My Home Sweet Home." It tells the story of a boy returning to his hometown after leaving on an adventure for a long time. So basically, the song is all about remembering the memories of the past, after having come a long way into the future.