After three days of marching band, I am happy to say that I am feeling much more comfortable with my section. Though, I must admit that there are times when my mind blanks and I have no idea what I should do next...especially during sectionals. But, I've started talking to my freshmen a bit more. They're already starting to laugh at me and hit me! It's great!
Doing drill downs this year is much more difficult for me because there's so much pressure on me. Everyone expects me to do well (because I'm technically "Drill Master"), when in reality, I can lose just as easily as anyone else. Whenever I do a drill down, my legs shake like crazy; sometimes I feel like I'm about to fall over. I can feel everyone's eyes on me, and I know that a lot of people are wishing for me to mess up.
I also blame my loss today on Yohanna and Denisse! They kept telling me to lose on purpose so that the freshmen wouldn't hate me! I told them that I would mess up on purpose if I made it to the final three, because I've never gotten a 3rd place ribbon before. I think that got to my head and distracted me during the drill down. Sigh...getting 4th place is like a slap to the face (so close, yet so far!!). Oh well, no one really to blame but myself. More reason to do better next week!
I went to the dentist's today, and I didn't contract bacterial endocartitis due to my muscular ventricular septal defect! Woohoo!
P.S. I like how a good piece of music can make me forget about all of my troubles, well, almost.
P.P.S. Today's title comes from the sad and dream-like song in Final Fantasy VII.
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I can totally relate to what you just wrote about drill downs. When I noticed I was one of the few left, I started getting really nervous. My legs were vibrating so badly and the fact that everyone was just watching was menacing.
ReplyDeleteOh Bryan, you shouldn't lose because someone tells you to. You should do it for one person: yourself.
But I'm not too worried though, "Drill Master" will probably take back the throne real soon. :)