Anyway, I'm sure no one will ever be around to read this, but...I just feel like I need to talk to SOMEONE right now. My head feels like it's about to explode right now; I want to get my mind off of applying for scholarships before I die from all the stress. There are so many options that I have right now and so much work that I should do, and so much of it will affect so much of my future. So not only is it very overwhelming, it's very stressful and nerve-racking and puts a lot of pressure on me. So much pressure that I feel like I can't breathe right now.
*Takes deep breath*
...okay, I don't really feel better, but at least I have until March to do a lot of this stuff. Then again...tempus fugit...
Speaking of which, I'm pretty content with how my arrangement is working with the band so far. I just hope that come February 11th, it's as perfect as it can be. Out of everyone in the band, I think I'm the person who needs the most practice with the piece. I mean, a conductor should be helping the band keep time, not messing everyone up!
Also, I've been working with the clarinets in particular because they have two really good melody lines in the piece. I really want to push them to play those with as much emotion as possible, particularly the line at 107. That melody is especially important to me because it is the very first melody that really touched me emotionally. Before I heard that part in I Am, I don't think I ever felt passionate about a particular piece of music, or even music in general. But now, that part and this piece have a special place in my heart and I feel that I'm connected to it, to all music, to Nez, even to Lynn Jones, the bari sax player who died in a car accident and to whom this piece is attributed to.
For me, certain pieces of music hold different memories. I Am is what showed me how music can affect people emotionally. Seeing Nez conducting with tears in his eyes taught me that music is something that can touch upon people's emotions in ways that nothing else can, and I think it's during that moment in time (it also happens to be bar 115 in Tempus Fugit) that I developed a passion and a fervor for instrumental music. It's definitely something I'll remember for the rest of my life.
I Am
Life, Music, Competition.
I like exciting things, and doing good for others.
Beauty, Successfulness and Smartness are important to me.
I like to achieve recognition.
I can succeed if I really put my mind to it.
I am very set in my ways,
But I can change when I realize my ignorance.
I like a simple nonchalant lifestyle.
I hate ignorance.
I hate structuredness.
This is me. I am!
-Lynn Jones
died, January1990
Life, Music, Competition.
I like exciting things, and doing good for others.
Beauty, Successfulness and Smartness are important to me.
I like to achieve recognition.
I can succeed if I really put my mind to it.
I am very set in my ways,
But I can change when I realize my ignorance.
I like a simple nonchalant lifestyle.
I hate ignorance.
I hate structuredness.
This is me. I am!
-Lynn Jones
died, January1990
